Children's 3 Mos Follow Up

Zane had his regular 3 mos follow up at Children's a few weeks ago - I have a love hate relationship with these appointments.  As much as I know I'm not supposed too...I consider these appointments my quarterly report card on how I/we are doing in taking care of Zane and this silly disease.  I absolutely love his doctor and Zane doesn't mind going to the appointments at all - so really it's a positive experience.

Every appointment we are given what his latest a1c is and this is what I dread most about the appointment.  This last one was 8.0% - I can't remember the one before, but it was somewhere in the 7%'s.  The goal is 7.5% or below - we fluctuate on and/or around that number all the time.  We aren't doing bad, but there is room for improvement.  Zane is healthy, he feels good and he is growing like crazy and really in the end, that is all that matters.

I have a hard time believing that we've been at this for almost 4 years now - wow!  This disease really is 24/7 - it never stops.  Thank God I have an awesome mother-in-law who is very well equipped to handle Zane's D care when I/we need a break or just when they want the boys for a weekend!  We are so lucky.  We have also met some amazing people because of his diagnosis, so I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and that there are silver linings to most dark clouds!

Sure is hard work waiting around for your name to be called to go back and see the doctor!  I love Children's!

Endo Follow-Up

Zane had his 3-month endo follow-up today - its always a love/hate appointment for me.  Thankfully today was mostly love :)  Zane's A1c was down to 7.8 from 8.4 and that is something to be happy about.  Its still not where I want it to be, but at least we are headed in the right direction.  His doctor gave Zane a very nice compliment that he was happy about - she told him he had "Rock Star Diabetes" because he was "rockin'" it and doing such a fine job!  We made a few changes in his pump that will hopefully help us get even more where we want to be.  Right now, we'll just celebrate the small steps we made and celebrate our healthy boy!

Endo Follow-Up

Zane had his regular 3 month (although, its been 4 months) follow up for his Diabetes today at Children's.  I have a real love-hate relationship with these appointments.  I love seeing his doctor and getting to ask her the many questions I have, I love seeing how much Zane has grown since his last appointment and love watching him interact with his doctor.  I hate the A1c - I take this number very personally as I've said many times; I hate that I take it personally - to me I look at it as a reflection on how well I am doing as his substitute pancreas.  I know full well that you can do everything by the book and right and things still don't turn out as you had hoped for - but that doesn't make it any easier for me.  Zane had the highest A1c that he's had since diagnosis - it was 8.4 and I almost cried...actually I would have, had Zane not been in the room.  I slightly freaked out when the doctor told me the number and she immediately said "I knew you would freak out - calm down, remember you are modeling behavior right now"...I immediately reassured Zane that this number was MOMMY's number and not his and that he was doing everything perfectly - he smiled because he has no clue what an A1c is nor does he even care what it is (and that's good)!  She said that this is totally normal for a child who has just started school, starting new activities and routines.  I truly believe that, but it doesn't lesson the blow any.

Zane is doing wonderful though!  He weighs 50 lbs and is 3'11 tall and has grown an inch since his appointment in June (weighs exactly the same)!  He is healthy, thriving, happy and wonderful - so all in all he's perfect :)

The doctor made a few changes in his pump, so hopefully those will help our next A1c and we can move past today's!  Next appointment won't be until January!

I'm most excited about their being a Starbucks inside!
Not so excited about the double chin!

Getting his "arm hug" and pushing the button to start it!

I love you buddy - please know that mommy is trying so hard to carry as much of this burden for you as possible.